Overwhelm Phase

I was going to write a blog post on how overwhelmed I am, but Fran has written an ever better post on this so clearly Overwhelm is a phase that aspirational 70.3 girls go through!

I'll attempt to keep this blog post focussed - unlike my mind - in an attempt at therapy and use bullet pointsd.

Things I am overwhelmed about:

• How much emotional and moral support I need to get through this training
• How fast the weekend cyclists are compared to me
• Whether or not I will make the cut off time on the bike
• How much emotional and moral support I demand to get through this training
• Is my training getting in the way of my relationship with my step son?
• Why have I chosen to do Blackpool Half marathon?
• How much is training affecting my relationship
• When am I going to have time to fundraise?
• The logistics of the next three back to back weeks with Mallorca visit and half marathon race to balance, and a sportive. 
• How much emotional and moral support I crave to get through this training
• What does Jon think about this?
• Is my training getting in the way of my friendships?
• Will I have a job after October?
• How can I worry about a stupid triathlon when great people have cancer and IDS is on the loose. 
• Will I hit my fundraising target
• What if I don't make the fundraising target. 
• What is my back up race?
• Will I use cleats and clip in pedals
• What will I wear on race day?
• How will I tackle the descents
• Will I make Jon proud? Will he show it? Will I think he shows it enough?
• Does anyone know how hard this is?
• Does anyone anyone know how hard this is for my puny unathletic body?
• Does anyone care?
• Does it matter if someone does care or not?
• I am so scared of failing.
• Why am I writing a blog post when I could be doing pilates or strength training?
• Why did I not do pilates or strength training today?
• Have I made enough to do lists and what is next on the to do list. 
• Is it ok to be scared? Does anyone know how scared I am? 
• Have I packed all my food to get through two training sessions in between work? 
• When is the next rest day? 
• Will I be able to run Blackpool Half on these feet? If not, will it matter?
• What is the point of cycling?
• What is the point. 

I think you get the idea. And none of that was exaggerated for effect.